im not supposed to come online today... but heck.. i wanna blog.. so bloooooogggggggggg away!

today is graduation day. in about 4 hours time,everybody else and i would be official ex-amksians. this makes me think of the day i stepped into amkss. hey, wait, actually before that. i must admit that when i got the psle posting results i was so bloodily disappointed. with an aggregate of 245, i wanted to get into anderson, but i was way off from getting in. so i was like: ang mo kio?! hell, thats a NEIGHBOURHOOD school. and all my friends were getting into victoria, zhong hua, xin min, anglican high, cedar. i mean all the good schools. so i tried my best to appeal. but u know what? im thankful my appeal [to cedar] wasnt successful. i mean i would have missed out on all the joyz [i mean joys] of being in amkss.

so the first day of school was horrible, i knew NOBODY. like zero. i hated the green uniform [of which, i've grown so accustomed to it now, i will feel weird if i wear some other sch's uni] but thankfully, things started to brighten up. i loved my class. ok fine, other classes would say we r porbably the dead-est class or whatever. i dont care. i had so much fun both in 1-3,2-3. i met so many amazing friends like cleo, yip ling, chung yan, chun fei, mark, haur ming, elaine, jia ling, rara, nurul, ren xin. oh dear. the list just goes on until all 40 names come out. but even after going to upper sec, i still miss the first 2 years of school. like we were all innocent [hahaha] and we just do stuff the best we can. there was no crappiness, heck-care attidude. couldnt be bothered about each other. that sort of thing. we werent united. we had cliques in class. but heck, we were together.

then it was onto upper sec, 3-2,4-2. it was like one crazy class ok. i think we played more than we actually studied. but everybody didnt bother. haha. oh well, life should be fun anyways. the sec 3 adventure camp was a memorable expirience. then there was our assembly performance. we had problems, but we overcome that. and thats more important than anything else. we had a horrible form teacher. haha, im biased. but actually, i think [note:THINK] im gonna miss her. to tell you the truth, i never like 3-2/4-2 from the beginning, my closest friends were all in seperate classes. my comfort zone was gone and i felt tremendously uneasy. but that was ridiculous. soon, i became friends with jaclyn [there were some misunderstandings, but we overcame that, and thats what truly matters], wan, ber, fish, van... im gonna miss all the times we had in class.

to think of it, im gonna miss alot of things in school. like looking out of the window [constantly], waving to mark when he passes by [lol], day dreaming/sleeping in class. vandalising my desk [i should post a pic], cheating during tests [haha, im kidding. really] copying homework [hey, we helped lighten the teachers work. they only have to mark like five or six different answers instead of 40!] reading under the table for guang's lesson. eating in class. oggling the 42 guys when we were in sec 2. screwing up home econs. screwing up my science/art. but doing well for my geog/combined humanities. spreading my sp love [lol] some guides activities. hanging around after class. running around for pe [no wait, i WONT miss it] cursing teachers. [*evil*] borrowing textbooks from other classes. asking for test questions from other classes. school food! eating in school. assembly performances. drama nights. nomad. emcee-ing [though our dearest principal would disapprove] doing QA/VA. being in council. council activities. being class chair for half a year. physics lesson [haha]

and most importantly, im gonna miss my friends. those peeps who have been with me since day one. i dunno what i will do/become without you guys. i wonder if i would be who i am today. i wonder if i would hav survived secondary school life. i wonder if i was ever able to share my lame jokes if nobody was there. i wonder if i was able to overcome those tearful days. i wonder if i was able to laugh my heart out. i wonder if i was able to leave this school with hppy memories without you guys. i love you guys to bits! even if we've have drived each other up the wall somtimes, i still love you guys..

and of course, i wonder if i was able to become such a crazy/cranky/sp lover/joyful/lame person without my dear girl friend! cleo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im gonna miss you so much. im gonna miss the times we just chatted about anything under the sun. im gonna miss the times where we could talk about anything/everything. im gonna miss the times when you were there for me, in so many ocasions, during nomad, when my grandma had a heart attack. it was all these times that matter and i would forever treasure this mermories. [tear ='(] i love you girl friend!

[i better stop before your pig becomes jealous. lol] =D

oh man, i never want to stop this blog entry. there were so many incidents in amkss. there were painful ones, i admit, but it was these that enabled me to grow. getting all emotional now. i know everyone will still at least try to keep in touch. and i hope we do. [*cough* somebody still owes me lunch!] i love you guys!

02 October 2004