//*(j)oyz (t)o (t)he (w)orld v. i me you

ya noe... this 3rd term has really been very different from e 1st n 2nd. it juz feels busier... n everything seems to crash down at one go... time seems to pass too fast, a glimpse n its already the 8th week. feels like juz ytd, im out at e beach... juz chilling... im really very tired. dun think i can cope anymore. think i myself am getting cranky. if i cant even take this, how to go jc? hmm, it seems really weird. y am i rushing like mad for? im not really tat eager to go jc ... or poly for tat matter... ite? hmm... dun even wanna think.
nowadays, really hate going to claz. maybe cuz i care wat others think of me too often. really hope sometimes i can juz do wat i alwiz say: im not here to win a popularity contest. but its not tat easy. haiz. y am i like this? wonder if i was born like this, or i was brought up like tat?
haiz, really very upset. hate going to claz. sometimes, i wish it was still nomad week, can skip lessons, no need to go to claz, no need to face those unfriendly stares... no need to hear those unfriendly voices... or maybe am i too sensitive? although all e probs faced during nomads. all e tiring rehearsals, damn principal, damn edward n lester... its much better. at least, i noe wat im doing there. at least, i noe im sort of accepted... is being accepted tat important? hmm, although all e unpleasant-ness, nomad was really fun. had tons of fun wif yip, cindy, colin, (mr) george lee, ismail, wif e backstage crew ppl, (although i get tease like mad wif those disgusting eyebrows). it was fun ya noe? although e concert was really very normal, luv e songs, even e tamil n malay ones. think i muz be mad, only one backstage grooving to it. (except for colin maybe) miss those times. guess they will juz remain as a memory...
i wonder wat was e first 6 months like. it really felt real. felt great having a fren. but now, i wonder if all those are fake, if those are juz my own wild imagination. wat happen? guess, its juz better to keep to myself... guess, its pointless to get to noe others better. maybe its juz better this days...
i really dunno... im too tired to think anymore...

#jOyZ flyin' in the sky at 16:05

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16 August 2003

hi all! has been a week since i last updated. this week was really very busy. got tons of rehearsals. haiz, in times like this, sch really sux. e principal sux, e teachers sux (most!). haiz, 3 of us cindy, yip n i got kicked out at e very last minute. dey got 2 other guys to be mcs. worse of all, those 2 bastards dun even bother to practice. like hello! we practiced for 3 weeks!!! dey had less than 2 days to practice but they coundt even be bothered. we were realli pissed off... but wat ta do??? argh, gonna strangle ms tan. stupid principle. think shes so great.
anw, after lots of complications which im too embarassed to say, i did e mcing wif colin... today is gonna be 2 bastards. pity cindy n yip. dey practiced like mad n didnt even do anything. at least i got to do 2 nites... its really complicated. i've learn tat sometimes, its juz best to keep quiet, shut e big mouth n dun even bother to volunteer... haiz...
anw, e onli gd thing i can say is tat i had fun backstage... in between performances we were all grooving wif e music... its really cool... cant get e band pieces or e choir songs out of my head now:) and, both of us had fun mc-ing. like i said, im e best mc in e world n colin is only 2nd best:) haha.... later it became: we r e best mcs in e world n those 2 bastards suck:) *evil grin*

#jOyZ flyin' in the sky at 10:58

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08 August 2003

juz realised tat my old entried arent around. hmm, really no idea how to put them back. i really suck at html stuff anw:) hehe, today got national day celebration. kinda sianz though. hmm. anw, help anybody? to get the old entried back??
at cleo's house now. figuring out e 3D images... gosh, i really wanna go beach. *HINT*

#jOyZ flyin' in the sky at 12:00

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03 August 2003

hey, really took a LONG time. guess had a busy week... maybe not:) had rehearsals on both days(mon &wed). really excited abt NOMAD(nite of music, arts n dance=concert). kinda getting everyone to go for it, if they can(jolynn, go lar....). hope i dun screw up! like 2nd time being emcee. hope it turns out really good. been practicing, even when i bathe, now, my gor thinks im a little loose in e head=) hehe, cant wait. gotta wear like formal wear so borrowed my cousin's (fen) clothes. man, i totally luv her clothes. colud hav borrowed e whole wardrobe home! she's like working n stuff so got $$$ to buy marz... borrowed 2 dresses from her. really nice. now gotta exercise n lose some fat, if not, gonna ruin e boo-ti-full dresses:) haha, borrowed shoes too. super high. now wondering how to fix my hair... hmm, help cleo? n thinking abt getting mascara n stuff... hmm, gosh, im so terribly vain:) oh well, muz contribute to economy rite?? =p
went for debate on fri. lost. its all my fault lorz. i screwed up really badly. haiz, anw, juz hope i dun nagged by ms ng. as edmund says, its like watching house of 100 corpses. very scary lor... or even worse...
hmmz, lynzie is still kinda ignoring me... haiz, wonder wats wrong? noe she's really stress now, but... haiz. i really dunno larz... its like really weird in claz w/o her company ya noe? i mean its not like as if i dun hav any frenz in claz. there's fishie, birdie, lane(elaine) n many others. but its not e same ya noe? haiz, wat happen? first half of e year was really cool, then after tat, its juz nothing... all gone suddenly, wat happen?? juz weird... not e same... haiz.
*sensing a beach trip* *HINT HINT*
anw, gonna be emcee for national day. think doing e ne scramble thing. hmm, e face painting sounded really fun. but well, got mc-ing to do...
haiz, im still thinking abt lynzie... gosh, y??? haiz..
anw, gotta go do hw now. hope this week will be better...

#jOyZ flyin' in the sky at 20:33

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